The two women sat looking at each other and then the woman with brown hair began.
“Are you ok?”
The woman picked up the glass of water to her right and took a sip.
“Yes. Surprisingly, I feel fine.
I understand what is going on.
I have come to be at peace with the situation which has occurred, and now?
Now all I want to do is move on with my life.
I’m not scared of the outcome.
I’m not scared of the journey.
In fact, without being obnoxious, it would be fair to say I am no longer scared of anything.”
The two women looked at each other and the other woman spoke.
“This is not surprising considering all that has happened.
The thing we need to decide on though, is how you want to proceed.
You find yourself in a strange situation now after our chat yesterday, and knowing the direction this company is going in over the next few years, I wanted to take a minute and ask you:
where you see yourself?
What are you hoping to achieve?
What do you hold of value?
What do you want to do next?
Slowly she turned the glass with both hands simultaneously; watching as the glass turned on the paper coaster whilst the water inside stayed completely motionless.
The woman turned the glass 4 revolutions
She traced her finger on the glass rim
And then she looked at the other woman and spoke.
“The thing I hold of value
Yet; the price to put on that kind of value,
I can not say.
If I look back at the experience I have….
if I add the knowledge of life I have accumulated along the way…if I take the time now to articulate what it is I have, and how that makes my skills valuable…then I realise it is the thing which in fact kept me crippled all along.
In fact it is the thing that keeps my child here crippled all along.
I am valuable to you
I am different.
I am valuable to the world
I am valuable to you
There is no one else in the world who is exactly like me.
To a degree for sure.
But if I
take the opportunity
to lean into being 100% fully me
with all of the flaws
and all of the damages
and all of the darkness
and I accept myself for who I am….
then a side effect of that is I can’t help fall in love with that person who loves and accepts themselves so fully.
then that enables me to grow stronger every day.
Watching as I carve my own path in the face of rejection, snide remarks, judgement and criticism.
As I learn, my child learns.
As I grow, my child grows.
As I teach, my child teaches.
So in answer to your question?
Why am I valuable?
I am valuable because I hold something of value which no one else in the world has.
And when I know what I am worth, then I do not need to wait for you
I do not need
to have someone see
the beauty inside of me.
I do not need to be selected
to dance with others.
When in fact I can dance on my own.
When I can teach on my own.
That there is another way to learn
and to be.
You ask me where I see myself, and what I plan on doing?
I see myself here…. today.
And I see myself there….. tomorrow.
And my plans for the future involving being utterly
and unashamedly me.
Both a killer.
Both a lover.
Both a teacher.
And a mother
You and I….
we are in fact
ONE and the same…
But just because we are One,
does not mean we need to be